| Earth. |
[Mar. 11th, 2007|01:42 pm] |
I always catch myself day dreaming. I'm always thinking about and soaking in like and everything around me. This world is such a crazy place. I feel like I'm generally surrounded by good people with good intentions and good vibrations and that's a positive thing. I've hung out with a lot of people from different places and into different things and got caught up in some dumb shit in my past and I guess in a way I'm glad I had those experiences because that's what it took for me to understand some things about life and figure some things out. I think I learn best through experience although I feel as I get older I can start to reason things better in my mind. I can't help but try and progress through my life calmly and patiently if possible and to just constantly change, constantly have new interests, study new things, listen to new music, meeting new people. Meeting new people is something I enjoy so much. I am shy at first meeting new people but once I am comfortable it's so good to talk to other people and hear what they have to say and learn new things. I always seem to learn when I talk to someone new. People are everywhere. Good people are everywhere. All over the world. I want to see the world. I want to just see new places, chill with some people and learn. We're only in this body once. We're only going to have these opportunities once and we're only getting older. I'm trying to take advantage of my young, in shape self now while I can travel and do new things without it being too much. Right now at this very second that I type this is the youngest I will ever be for the rest of my life. I want to use this time to my advantage to get out and do new things. Life is the greatest thing I've experienced and although it isn't always easy, the good times are well worth it. When I have a good day I'm the happiest person in the world. When Meg and I spend a good day together and are both really happy I'm the happiest person in the entire world. I feel like my purpose in this life is to enjoy it while not leaving other people behind. I enjoy more than anything showing people new experiences, letting them try new things, do things outside of their norm. I think I love it because I love it. Have a good day
"Get up and wake up and live"
-Bob Marley
Meghan Elizabeth Hennessey<33333333333333333 |
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| These words will be forgetten |
[Feb. 15th, 2007|11:06 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | John Henrikson - Dead Show/podcast for 09/22/06 | ] |
Time to write. There's been a lot going on lately. I've been wanting to write for a little while. I have these things that are always with me. Not just my cellphone and keys, but thoughts. Thoughts I can't escape and wouldn't want to even if I could. I have a hard time with a lot of these thoughts not because I think they are bad but because so many people are blind to them. It isn't even like most people don't see them or aren't right in front of them, they choose not to see them. Life is the greatest thing there could ever be. Without life we wouldn't exist. Life isn't great because of the nice new shiny cars that they're making, or the new fashions they are coming out with, not even for the computer I'm typing this on right now! Of course all of these things are exciting, and some even helpful, such as this computer to convey my message to anyone who choses to read it. But still, these aren't the things that make life a beautiful thing. Things that make life a beautiful thing is the freedom we have if we want it. We can do whatever we want. If there's a way there's a will. If I want to go rob a bank, i can do that! I'm not going to because I know what I will get for that, but I still have that freedom. I have the freedom to think exactly how I want about exactly what I want. Life is beautiful because of love. Not the kind of love that people are hoping to attain in a relationship from the age of 15 but the love that is in everyone. So many people chose to live peaceful lives in harmony with others. When I meet people looking to have a good time, and truely care about others and making this world function properly then I know why life is worth living. Life is beautiful because when I step outside and breath in the fresh air I feel so good and it's beautiful because of all the beauty that nature brings us. Life didn't become beautiful when a government was developed and cars were invented and fashion became the new thing...this planet was here so sooooo much earlier than all of that and I can only imagine how beautiful it was. Nature is what was here before us. Nature is the we are here right now. Without nature we wouldn't have oxygen, we would have plans or water or anything else to keep us from starving to death, we wouldn't have shelter to block us from harsh weather.
I feel like a lot of people need to wake up and see this. Nature is getting more and more shit on because people are more concerned about looking cool in their hummer or suv, or using what hairspray works for them, or what the easiest way to get rid of their trash is. I can't say I don't contridict myself sometimes because I do. But the point is that I try not to. I try to live lightly on this planet. What people don't seem to understand is that either your kids, or your kids' kids are going to die. Not of old age but because they can't breath or because it's too hot or cold. People are already dying. Open up your eyes. How many natural cotastophies have happened in the past 10 years? More than ever. People are already dying. Even if you do see this it's time to do something. It's time to open up your eyes and see how important nature is and how even the little things can help save what is slowly killing the human race.
I feel like I'm finally figuring some shit out about this life. I think for a long time I was confused about what it was and how I perceived it. The only way I found that I can manage in it is to be peaceful and practice peace and surround myself with peaceful people. When I am around negative people they tend to try and bring you down with them and it's no good. I understand that caring about other people is the closest we can get towards the ideal community even if others aren't going to contribute. It's not okay but there's nothing I can do about that. The least you can do is not contribute to it if you aren't going to help.
Headin to NYC for the long weekend so I hope everyone has a good one. |
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| Personal growth/change |
[Dec. 27th, 2006|08:31 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Robert Jackson - Materialism, why? | ] |
“The joy of life consists in the exercise of one's energies, continual growth, constant change, the enjoyment of every new experience. To stop means simply to die. The eternal mistake of mankind is to set up an attainable ideal.” - Aleister Crowley
I think this explains everything I wanted to say. Everyone is always setting an ideal for themselves and keeping it. People get a job they like, are happy with the people they already know, are fine with the way they are even if they know the have flaws. Like A.C. I think that is important to always be pushing yourself to progress and grow and change throughout your entire life. Not to just find an ideal and and stick with it. I feel like over the past few years I have been progressing a lot and learning new things not only about myself but about life in general. I feel like when I find a flaw in myself the best thing to do is to try and fix it because the more you fix the better things are for you. Obviously no one will ever be perfect but being the best you possibly can is the best thing you could do.
Why not try to become better and stronger and strive for everything you want in life even if you never reach it, you're that much closer? |
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| So on and so forth. |
[Dec. 17th, 2006|11:10 pm] |
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I'm finally done with school for the semester and it feels good. I thought I would talk about physical activities and nature.
I've been pretty lazy throughout my life...but not too too lazy. I grew up with my dad bringing me on hikes and camping and through that, that is how I started to notice how much i loved nature. It is the most beautiful thing in the entire world to me. There isn't much that compares to the feeling I get when I step outside and breathe in the fresh air see the open space and the sky and the clouds and the hills and fields. I don't think life has anything more beautiful to offer than nature. Nature doesn't include just plants and water, it includes animals, and humans, and anything else that is organic. I think I learned to see this and feel this way by just spending time outside. And then I got somewhat lazy throughout life and sometimes spent days or even summers not doing much but sitting around watching tv or sitting around smoking pot and I'm starting to realize again how stupid of an idea of pleasure that was. I don't see anything wrong with tv, tv can be filling with knowledge but getting outside and seeing the world is one of the most beneficial things you can do for yourself. If I'm having a bad day or I'm upset I go outside for a walk or into the woods because it fills me with energy that I can't explain. It can make the worste situations so much better by just breathing the air, enjoying the silence and watching the sky. I know I can't explain what I feel to other people unless they see what I see because everyone is different and not everyone has the same interests but I feel this isn't just something I am interested in but something I think is important in life. To have a strong connection with nature is something so important to me. When I sit inside and watch tv I start to feel like being outside is something I need to be doing. Nature offers the most beautiful things. What is more beautiful than the sunset or sunrise? The reflection of the forest in a lake? The stars on a dark night? A full moon? The sound and feeling of a summer breeze? The foliage in the fall? The first snow fall in the winter or the snow covered trees? A deer and it's doe crossing through a field? How can anyone deny that those are the most beautiful things life has to offer? That's why I enjoy getting involved with nature and being part of nature and discovering new things about nature first hand. That's where the physical activities discussion comes in. Hiking and camping have been my favorite outdoor activities. I love hiking so much and I have backpacking in parts of Yellowstone overnight and did a week long hike in the grand canyon with nothing but a backpack on my back and those were some of the most amazing thing I have ever done in my entire life. And then laziness overtakes me and that's when I feel like I'm not doing nearly enough. I don't necessarily have to do overnight trips to feel complete but hiking and doing physical activities make me feel so much better. When I am lazy and don't do anything I am fine and don't think about it but once I start doing stuff again I realize how much more energy I have and how much better I feel physically and emotionally. I feel so much better knowing that first off I got out to go do stuff I really enjoy and then just doing physical things energizes your body so much. I have been getting into rock climbing a lot lately. I have been going almost 2 to 3 times a week lately and it's the first physical thing I have done in so many months and I feel so much better. I've been wanting to do it so much because it's something I really enjoy and now that I have been doing it I am in better shape and I am stronger and I feel like I can do more easier. I feel like I'm progressing and it's a challenge and it's something to look forward to. Even though I am tired and worn out after climbing it is such a relaxing feeling. Not even just climbing but all physical activities are so good feeling. Even when I hike or swim or anything...once you are done the feeling is amazing. Sometimes I even think about how much I enjoyed doing bitch work at UPS where I pushed my self so hard and got stronger and stronger. I can't explain it it's just so good feeling and when I mix nature and physical activities together I am the happiest person in the world. I hope some people feel what I say rather than just look past it as another one of my rambles. We all have knowledge to share so learn from others and let others learn from you. |
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[Dec. 4th, 2006|02:40 pm] |
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I decided I'm going to write on different topics throughout the upcoming months....i'll make a list of them sometime soon...for now...not this summer but the following one i want to work at glacier national park all summer...meet tons of chill people, see amazing things, be with nature.
here it is:
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| why did i bother writing this?? |
[Nov. 23rd, 2006|12:28 pm] |
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| | Mudvayne - Choices | ] |
It's thanksgiving.
My mom bought me a tofurkey (tofu turkey)
i have had one before and it's pretty good.
then to my dads house.
who knows how long i will be stuck there.
have a good day. |
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| Pure Love |
[Nov. 21st, 2006|11:41 pm] |
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| | peaceful | ] |
I haven't written a post in a long time. I think just because I've been so busy with school and everything that I just haven't had the time. Shit has been nuts lately. Especially since I started working and going to class I've been busy from day to night and getting up so early. Figuring out my schedule took awhile too and it was such a pain because once I got it all figured out it took about 5 seconds to register them. I'm getting off track.
I think that anyone can understand peace by just living a peacefully. It isn't a hard thing to do. Peace is just living in harmony with everyone else in a nonviolent, unified sort of way. By thinking peaceful thoughts and setting peaceful goals for yourself and just doing things in a calm manner everything that surrounds you becomes more peaceful. I think karma is something that can effect how things work. I think if you do good then good things will eventually come to you and if you do bad then bad will eventually kick you in the ass.
No one wants to hate or be hated...everyone strives for love. Everyone wants to be loved. Everybody wants to find love. Everybody wants to know what love feels like. Love can change the world by living in a loving way. If you want to be loved then why not love others. I think respect, love, and unity are very closely tied. Respect is just a form of love..it shows that you care about that person and/or is a peaceful action, and unity is a place where love can flourish because when people unite and create families and ultimitly strive to unite with everything the world and beyond offers then they are striving to reach peace with what surrounds us. Everyone wants love even if they don't see it right away so I think everyone needs to start loving more and stop hating so much.
Thats all for now
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| Why the hell not. |
[Sep. 24th, 2006|09:36 pm] |
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| | Thursday - Signals Over the Air | ] |
I've been so busy with school. I finally have a chance to just write for a little while. I always have so much homework and still have a little right now but am going to do it later. It's only ready 5 pages. There's a lot going on right now with me. I'm living in the econo lodge in westfield because they put 45 transfer students in here because there is no room on campus until next semester. It isnt bad because they come in and clean for us and everything and we have a/c and our own bathroom and shower but its a pain to drive back and forth to and from campus to go to class on even on the weekends just to eat. So it has its pros and cons.
Classes are going good. One class sucks but there are only three presenations throughout the semester and i already did my first one which involved a lot of reading but now that thats over i wont have as much. One class involves a lot of reading but all of my other ones barely have any homework. So thats a good thing.
I'm planning on going for a run at least 3 times a week to try and get in shape a little more. I was also thinking about trying to snowboard or ski or something this winter and maybe get some snow shoes too so I can be outdoors and I can stay in shape. I want to do some hiking and possibly a backpack trip before it is way too cold which means it has to happen soon. I also want to buy some rock climbing gear so I can go climbing because its something ive always wanted to do and if i get some gear then from there on its pretty much free to go climbing.
In less than a week (this thursday) is me and megs one year anniversary. I am excited for that. Really excited for that. I can't believe it's already been a year. Sometimes it feels like its gone by so fast and sometimes it feels like we've been together forever just because we know each other so well and we are so comfortable with each other and I love that. I love being in love. I have the most amazing girlfriend that I could ask for and I hope nothing ever happens between us but I am confident that nothing ever will. I love her so much.
That's all for now I guess. |
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| Off to school |
[Sep. 3rd, 2006|12:48 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Kelly Howell - Track 1 | ] |
I leave for school on tuesday. Today is sunday. So that isn't very far. I probably wrote most of this before in past journals but I'm somewhat nervous for the first time going off to school. Not because I'm not used to living out of my own home because right of highschool I took off and did my own thing for awhile. But for a few reasons. The big one is that for the past few years doing college its been a joke for the most part. I was finally out of my house on my own and still young and not that smart and could do what I wanted so I partied all of the time and ended up getting arrested a ton and sitting in a county jail one night. It's finally starting to sink in now that I have to take this very seriously and do the best I can. My parents are sick of me fucking around and I'm sick of me fucking around so I have to actually spend some time doing well. That's the hard part. That I have to finally face it and put all my effort in and get shit done instead of just fucking around.
I'm sure it will go good just a little pre-anxiety I guess.
Peace. |
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